Too Much

Something is change within me. I lost my inner peace that's for sure, everyday is a torture.

I know it sounds dramatic, but this place is changing me, the situation is not condusive anymore around. One by one my colleague is leaving, more others is thinking about leaving, some others is having scholarship chasing higher degree.Not that leaving is easy its nightmare to propose relocate, many drama involve, i mean i know what i'm saying , believe me >,<.

Yesterday Ulong was crying at mushollah , couldn't bear anymore the pressure she had working in this place-working with his bos-, she's complaining that after doing her partner job which got sick and another partner whose enrolling to master , still her supervisor couldn't appreciate her more, instead giving her much more unrealistic reason why she's not remind him about many things (that on Ulong side suppose to be HIS own responsible to memorize). Bener2 gak masuk akal!

The week earlier on Friday things got bad also, i just knew it that the big boss is sending BBM to all DD that he more than upset and unhappy to see many staff  ' dianggap memanfaatkan surat tugas'. HAHA!! Bodoh sekaliiiii, asal tau saja, kami tidak ditugaskan untuk konsinyering ataupun sosialisasi akan sangat sangat senang. Memanfaatkan? Yang bener ajah!! orang tiap bisnis trip isinya pressure juga, Ngaco deh!!

Hufft...Deep breath deep breath.....

Capek ati deh gini terus huhuhu, pengen pindah pengen pindah . Allah, please show me the way, i just couldnt be like this for the rest of my life kan?

Lost the mood to continue,

Nanti deh ya aku nulis lagi

Not Brave enough

I was am on level 9 out of 10 anxiety now, i just don't feel connected anymore to this place, its killing to drag my feet every single morning to this place. I'm doomed, i'm too stress, i don't feel i'm belong to this place. There's no one in this place supporting me to rid this feeling since as long as i know everyone is feeling the same burden.

To submit the relocation proposal wasn't easy thing also although for many many times i try to brave my heart to do it, just do it . You have nothing to loose anyway, if this doesn't work at least you have try, but i don't do anything just yet. My husband letter showing that he relocate to Surabaya only scattered in my desk need my big brave action to put it in to massive letter regarding my plan and my willing to relocate.

I just couldn't do it with this level of stress

I'm jus too tired

I'm devastated, i don't know what to do

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Bloody Hell Resign

Some people emang lebih suka untuk membiarkan orang lain suffer untuk mengamankan posisi mereka. Bekerja di tempat ini aku merasakan benar hal itu, orang orang tidak mau susah bukan karena mereka adalah orang-orang egois, tapi keadaan lah yang membuat mereka berlaku kejam.

They said monster create by other  monster, so true

Dalam interaksi keseharian dengan kolega kolega disini aku tahu betul most of them adalah orang orang baik, cuman karena keadaan dan pressure they change in to selfish, self centered, cari aman dan gak peduli orang. Unless you ask them for help they won't bother if ur face suffer for hand lift.

Hari ini seorang teman yang seharusnya lepas tugas dari sini dari februari lalu mengirimkan sebuah pesan di gtalk meminta tolong untuk memonitor surat pengunduran dirinya sampai dimana prosesnya di MK1, well dengan senang hati aku akan membantunya. To be honest entah ini perasaan dan sikap yg normal atau malah cenderung aneh, aku malah seneng banget kalo ada orang resign dr tempat ini, seneng aja gitu at least mereka bisa punya normal life than trapped in this so called kawah candradimuka.

Dua orang teman sebelumnya yang juga memutuskan resign juga dipenuhi dengan drama, my boss just won't make things like this easy, as long as you can kick your ass from this place bloody hell then surely it will.

Bandung (1-2 Maret 2012)

Last week, i have the opportunity to have a business trip to Bandung with the colleagues, the business trip it self is to conduct a socialization on Government Bond to student. The venue was took place on Faculty Economy, University of Parahyangan, Bandung

We went to Bandung by car at 4pm the day earlier, been an escape from the boring routine. Here some pic i manage to capture from my tablet, not a good one, but hey the most importat thing is to capture the moment and the emotion , agree? yesss agreee^_^

We accomodated in Hotel Ardjuna, at jalan Ciumbeleuit Bandung, the hotel wasnt big but its cozy and clean, the room is big enough for two and the bathroom(the most necesitty in travelling) is clean and brand new. You can find the details on here http://www.theardjunahotels.com/.

Enough for now, see you on the next post. Ciao..